Mandoline
Mm come close, food still on my tongue as I sleep
I am eating so good again, Dear Reader
 
                 Soft glossed waves of burnt sugar. Water.
                 Careful, slow, slower. Yes. 
                 Crystalline into dissolved tanned sweetness, pour 
 
Meaning my thighs are touching again, praise God
Pressed together like palms at house church or a closed
 
                 salted orange pistachio mixture, blend the 60 grit to a wet
 
mouth
Yes Lord, incense kissed to your ear
 
I am singing like Phife
And yes, sometimes I am toothless 
Knocking my gums praying for the sounds of  bone crack, a drip of pennies 
 
                 smooth praline. Let harden. 
 
Afterall, a tongue sometimes wants to toil softness
 
I am gifting my throat refuge from stone offerings 
My hungry breathing, a type of measure 
Adorn myself with slick wine tattooed smiles from plastic white cups
 
                 Shatter cooled mixture into disparate cathedrals. Set aside. 
 
It always goes to blood and food for me
 
Give me the good chocolate– I’m hoping hip dips 
Will trap someone who is so sorry and quiet and never home
When weekends come,
 I’ll cage them between my thighs like a small bird, feed them sparingly
 
                 Slice blood orange. Repetition.
                 Careful; a mandolin, nicked palms. 
 
So to not grow too big for their cage
 
                 Sift cocoa into batter. Bake. Let rest. 
 
I baked a cake and ate the whole three layer mess of it, thin slices at a time
And I am having, like, the best day since Jesus invented the calendar
And you know how the heart works
                 Spread cool chocolate ganache.
                 Garnish with blood orange, shards of praline. Salt. 
 
Sometimes there’s just no time for a plate
Every new slice I cock my head back and cackle
Summon rain
Summon you to sit, yes you 
child, gold flaked and humming 
 
These long days I allow turning towards a body as a type of soil
I take my soft belly and pat like I would my mother’s and my grandmother’s
Want often hidden by loose fitted cloth, at home bare and a fixture
 Press my ear to its earth 
Hear its shifting 
And whisper I love you I love you I love you I love you back
Alera Ojomoh Dermody is a queer Nigerian-American baker, student, and poet living in San Diego. She interested in community foodways, queerness, blackness, and softness. She is pending publication, and relatively new to publishing but has loved writing and constructing stories since she was a child.