THE FIRST TIME YOU LEARN YOUR BODY IS NOT YOUR OWN
you cry listening to fka twigs
on your bike ride home
something about being unloved, the sky
wraps herself blood orange you wake up sixteen
neon anger over a bruised skyscraping whisper
in her ear like why don't i do it for you
your body stopped belonging
on the tiled floor of your mother’s bathroom
you still itch for the years when you were only afraid
of sugaring yourself against the pacific
your body stopped belonging behind a thumping
door, gravity could no longer claim, you thought
of her pearls sewn into your lips, three days ago
your body stopped belonging
name your ribs an august lightning storm
your jawbone a peach from the farmer’s market
name your spine the dead boy you found under
a car in yosemite your throat the bottle
of fireball screaming across the road your hair
the snake tattoo on his back
Sydney Vogl (she/they) is a queer poet who lives and writes in San Francisco. In 2020, they were chosen as the poetry fellow for the Martha's Vineyard Institute for Creative Writing. Her work, which was nominated for Sundress Publications’ Best of the Net 2020, has been published in Entropy, Hobart and Kissing Dynamite. They currently serve as a poetry editor for The San Franciscan Magazine, an assistant poetry editor for Invisible city, and work as an educator to Bay Area Youth.
Note: This poem contains a line from FKA Twigs’ song “Cellophane”