Sydney Vogl

THE FIRST TIME YOU LEARN YOUR BODY IS NOT YOUR OWN

you cry listening to fka twigs 

on your bike ride home 

something about being unloved, the sky 

wraps herself blood orange you wake up sixteen 

neon anger over a bruised skyscraping whisper 

in her ear like why don't i do it for you 

your body stopped belonging 

on the tiled floor of your mother’s bathroom 

you still itch for the years when you were only afraid 

of sugaring yourself against the pacific 

your body stopped belonging behind a thumping 

door, gravity could no longer claim, you thought 

of her pearls sewn into your lips, three days ago 

your body stopped belonging 

name your ribs an august lightning storm

your jawbone a peach from the farmer’s market 

name your spine the dead boy you found under 

a car in yosemite your throat the bottle 

of fireball screaming across the road your hair 

the snake tattoo on his back


Sydney Vogl (she/they) is a queer poet who lives and writes in San Francisco. In 2020, they were chosen as the poetry fellow for the Martha's Vineyard Institute for Creative Writing. Her work, which was nominated for Sundress Publications’ Best of the Net 2020, has been published in Entropy, Hobart and Kissing Dynamite. They currently serve as a poetry editor for The San Franciscan Magazine, an assistant poetry editor for Invisible city, and work as an educator to Bay Area Youth. 


Note: This poem contains a line from FKA Twigs’ song “Cellophane”