Mallie Holcomb

On the Peculiar Intimacy of Girlhood Friendship 

I couldn’t tell most of the time 
if I wanted her or her litheness.
 
late one weekend we crept to the kitchen 
and she mixed pilfered vodka 
with diet coke, aglow 
in the light from above
the stove, and we drank til it tilted.
unfrictioned and nightshrouded, 
I realized only as I whispered: 
 
it was an experiment 
for awhile but 
now I don’t think I could
stop if I wanted
starvation was a game 
until it wasn’t;
hunger is a challenge
that I won until
I lost and now it’s
a compulsion wearing 
me as a jacket. 
 
I’m too convinced for intervention.
so she brushes my hair cross-legged 
on the bedroom floor and bears witness. 
so she leads me up the ladder into her twin bed 
and we settle in amongst the moonbeams,
surrounded by precipice and just enough light 
to be seen by. we face each other on one pillow 
and tangle ourselves close enough 
not to roll off either side. 


Mallie Holcomb received a bachelor’s in English from University of North Carolina Asheville in 2020, where she was awarded the Topp-Grillot Scholarship for strongest student of poetry and the Virginia Bryan Award for best senior thesis. Since then she has been working in libraries, practicing yoga, and testing the veracity of the statement “we publish both established and emerging poets.”