Goodbar

We are
Shoe string astronauts
Tying shoes together
Shoes to table
Shoes to pants
Whispers on launch pad
Moments from lift off

We are
Earthworms
Navigating all things concrete
The cold between us
A simple shiver.

We are
Engineers
A pile of legs and laughter
I have become less tea kettle
More bubble machine

We are
A blackhole coffin
You, Zia,
I, Mikaul
This conversation
A lover’s beach
Only to be washed away

The merry go round
Of our friendship
Slowing to a halt
The only coins remaining
Foreign

Is it worth the exchange
To start again?

When you blink
This will all have been
another mistake

I wonder:
What makes this bar
A good bar

What bits of us
Splattered on the pavement
Are stains

What words
Stuck in the sidewalk cracks
Are left moaning in the cold

If you could still hear me
If you even want to

If I have always been
The wrong door to knock on

If you have been the spray paint this whole time
Maybe the flowers were the most important part

We are:
A room full of hospital lights
Both beds are empty
But there’s blood on the floor

I wonder
What we are now

I wonder
Where you went.

I wonder enough
to know the difference
Between a daydream
And a car horn
And you are still sleeping

I wonder
When you’ll wake up.

Brittany Lisa Carey is a Buffalo born poet, fiction writer and the host of Ambedo Poetry. She graduated with a Bachelors degree in English from Hilbert College in 2017 and has since continued her learning journey on a more social level in the local art community. She has one published chapbook, Sutures & Mortar, through CWP (now Dark Particle) and her piece "Suicide" appeared in the January 2019 edition of Ghost City Review. You can follow Ambedo Poetry on Facebook & Instagram.