Jaya Stenquist

Surface tension 


the lion sat in the back quiet for a while in the passenger’s seat I struggled
with a pair of black tights I bought at CVS on the way the drive to North Oaks
was long and dark and she began to pace back and forth—scratch up the windows
 
I reached my hand back—she put her chin on it / still a little mange 
above her left eye dark eyes falling into something—
drops of water down a dry brown pit—circling onward like a planet
 
a state of always becoming we come alive when we are shot through
with light—pulled down—at the party I made a few avoidable faux pas took the wrong
glass of champagne frowned at a joke at my own expense was
 
dressed wrong in sandy gold—hair in a mane—
but I can be charming too move light in my direction— 
I was expecting they’d keep their lion outside the night a velvet sharpness
 
and the walls all windows so we were / drowned in black reflections
of our own eyes—his mother’s arms were crisscrossed with claw marks / I was 
somewhere between her and her son—a stranger—brought to a party 
 
as a date for a boy I barely knew but whose grief climbed six flights 
to my apartment—roared with me—we became pride of a kind—hunters 
whose prey have long since gone extinct—so more a reminder of violence than threat
 
knowing / known / I know this—I used to have the most archaic ways of looking
the moon was a plastic bag with water in it—I’ve lost interest in beauty / just facts / so I’ll say 
it straight——Let the lions inside. Let us eat.


Jaya Stenquist is an alum of the Loft Mentor Series and the MFA at UW Madison. Her work has appeared in Mid AmericanWest Branch Wired, and Hobart among others. She is based in Minneapolis, Minnesota. 

Matt Mitchell

ELEGY FROM A CHICAGO BATHTUB

(featuring a borrowed line from David Berman’s poem “Serenade for a Wealthy Widow”)


there are paramedics 
in the belly 
of the lobby, carrying a body out 
​​                on a stretcher. 
 
​ the water in this bathtub reeks of bleach. 
​​                my eyes have turned copper like the loose pennies 
 
crawling out of my wallet on the linoleum. 
i am no good at survival.
 
​​​                                i’ve been in this bathtub so long 
​​​                                my skin 
​​​ is starting to redden & itch.
 
​​​​from her window-side bed, 
​​​                 ​while watching downtown bloat 
 
​​​​​ with ambulance lights, 
​​​​                                                 ​my mother calls my name 
 
​​​​                                  to see if 
​​​​                                  i’m still alive, 
​​​​                                  & i say yes, 
​​​​
​​​ like i am here & i am still here.

 


Matt Mitchell is a writer from Ohio. His work appears in, or is forthcoming to, places like The Boiler, NPR, The Shallow Ends, Okay DonkeyVagabond City Lit, and others.

Julie Choffel

Lottery


When they cry
say their names.
 
Steely wonders
of an hour.
 
When everyone else writes the baby
is there even a page?
 
When they cry
change your face.
 
When they cry
make more or
less of it.
 
While the sky blues itself behind a cast of limbs
and I think about getting a look at it.
 
If the day goes sour
and cannot be recovered
by feelings.
 
When everyone’s crying
leave the room.
Is there a room?
 
The bodily. Proximity instead of 
fix. Those repeated motions
that make up love.
 
When they’re crying
eat something.
 
When they cry
the together dream
of another habitat
less habit, more wit.
 
Everything gleaned 
from one another.
 
When everybody’s crying
do not die
look into the sun
be the water
lapping your body 
upon another shore.


Julie Choffel is the author of The Hello Delay (Fordham, 2012) and a recent chapbook, The Chicories (Ethel Press, 2019). Her work has appeared in Denver Quarterly, the tiny, Phoebe, Art New England, Borderlands: Texas Poetry Review, Seattle Review, and elsewhere. She teaches creative writing at the University of Connecticut.

James Croal Jackson

city-data.com


In my living-in-my-car days I wandered the country wild 
and thought often of my mom, slipping anew on the verge 
in waking nightmares: silhouette with angled knife at 
my car window. Never peace, even in sleep, though I 
was lucky, had a roof, silver shining. A Ford Fiesta 
occupied. I’ve had a house broken into but I wasn’t there 
so it never felt like it actually happened, and the thief
took nothing I could remember missing except the mirage 
of having control. But living in my car I knew separation 
only by windows, fragile and claustrophobic. I slept in the 
backseat and thought that would give me an extra second, if 
needed. Sleeping in Wal-Mart parking lots I hoped to be 
able to see my mother again and I lied on the phone, 
verbally lowering crime rates for cities I slept in. 


James Croal Jackson (he/him) has a chapbook, The Frayed Edge of Memory (Writing Knights Press, 2017), and poems in Pacifica, Good Works Review, and indefinite space. He edits The Mantle Poetry (themantlepoetry.com). Currently, he works in the film industry in Pittsburgh, PA. (jimjakk.com)

Robin Gow

AN IMPOSSIBLE ELEGY TO A VAMPIRE


“And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…" he murmured. 
I looked away, hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the word.
"What a stupid lamb," I sighed.
"What a sick, masochistic lion.”

― Stephenie Meyer, Twilight

When I ask myself honestly
who was the first man I found beautiful?
He can only be a vampire. In seventh grade,
I was already in love with Angel from Buffy
when my friends started reading Twilight
Angel had a softer beauty. No darks circles are his eyes 
or deadly pale skin—but he was elusive
which, in the end, might be all that beauty is about.
How much can be hidden and how much can be true.
I am getting ahead of myself. I watched Buffy with my mom.
We fast forwarded past the sex scenes 
so I was left with only flickers
of his body. It felt as if, all girls 
were waiting for a vampire. I was, at least.
In seventh grade, I was fat. I tried not to have crushes.
I made imaginary boyfriends to fall asleep with.
They were always ghosts or vampires. 
In the end, how can you fault a young girl 
for falling in love with Edward Cullen?
His skin, sewn with glimmer.
He knew something of what it might mean 
to be a woman. All the fear. All the hiding.
He knew how to apply eyeliner.
He kept you safe while you slept,
watching you from the edge of your bed.
This is terrifying, I know. Young girls just wanted
to know someone who was beautiful 
and still capable of keeping them safe.
In my parent’s house,
I locked the door to my bedroom at night. 
Maybe, it is all trauma, how 
gender writes us into the same stories
again and again. We were all Bella.
We were all blank and waiting 
for a glamorous boy. 


Robin Gow is a trans poet and LGBTQ+ educator from rural Pennsylvania. They are the author of OUR LADY OF PERPETUAL DEGENERACY (Tolsun Books 2020) and Honeysuckle (Finishing Line Press 2019). Gow's poetry has recently appeared in POETRYWashington Square Review, and New Delta Review. They are a graduate student and professor at Adelphi University. They are also the founder of the New York city trans and queer reading series Gender Reveal Party.

Carly Madison Taylor

This Blessing of Less Harm


The car may not have ripped clean through that night
but a soft glittering of thick sugar-flake snow

on the back street I take home from work, flashing emergency
lights and tow truck behemoth down the center line.
 
The car may not have spun and screamed and shredded itself
across ice. I may not have seen what I saw while you left-
 
turned, braked confidently on tires that did not kill us
as we drove to the small, stupid emergency I built like an escape

hatch—but that halved car and its ghostly cohort, that miracle
of witnessing worse. Our first elevator ride together in a hospital
 
my fault, this blessing of less harm, stitches and sutures and gauze
or the paperback novel, the convincing story, the restaurant work
 
and roommates which put me next to you, rolling past the aftermath
of accident, grateful to maybe-dead strangers for their distraction.
 
On the back street I take home from work, past an invisible underground.
In the ER, lying. In the wreckage of three cars in a snowstorm

just past the intersection, just past the traffic light, just past the point
at which you know me and choose me still, with both hands

twisted in my lap, with my definitely-dead friend’s cold face
in a hotel bathtub, with those maybe-dead strangers pulled

out of metal and their torn, wet clothes and their histories
and mine, it’s all mine, I let the nurse sew it back inside—


Carly Madison Taylor is a poet, songwriter, and essayist living in Buffalo, NY. She earned her BA in Creative Writing and Dance Studies from Knox College in 2016. More of her work can be found at The ShoreKissing Dynamite PoetryMemoir MixtapesBlanket Sea MagazineVamp Cat Magazine, and elsewhere. She’s on Twitter @carma_t and Instagram @car_ma_t.  

Kevin R. Farrell, Jr.

Details


Without asking,
I offered,

telling the cashier my last meal would be pb & j,
“credit or debit” he said.

I wish I had more cash on me
to show him there’s still another option,

for him, for me, for us,
but with no checks we’ve lost balance.

Blood can still boil with ice in our veins, 
I signed the receipt.

I am the nothingness void of being, 
as I grabbed my bags.

the boredom absolved of all feeling, 
holding the door for the elderly couple.

ignorance provoking thought, jaywalking across 7th Avenue.
the bottom rung, fumbling for my keys.

Don’t make this difficult.
I’m easy, climbing the steps.

Not down for everything,
but up for anything, I whisper unlocking the apartment door.


Kevin R. Farrell, Jr. is a New York based artist, poet, and educator whose work has been published in Burning House PressRumble Fish QuarterlyAdroit JournalTerror House MagazineFormer PeopleBlakelight MagazineVisitant LitInk in Thirds MagazineIndiana Voice JournalFoxhole MagazineYo-NEWYORK!BONED StoriesYes, Poetry,Digging Press, and The Writing Disorder

Olivia Lehman

The Gay Bar is the Only Place Not Burning


the entire rest of the street is in flames / both churches / even the mustard yellow fire hydrant / irony stronger than the scent of gasoline / our bar is just now opening / the door frame tries to light past a bouncer spraying an extinguisher / and now the foam is in our meticulously messed up hair / but only a smile catches / as a girl with a shaved head buys me an orange drink / so much like the orange tint of the dance floor / high windows spilling in the classic brimstone ambience we’ve always liked / and we are getting older / as we make small talk about the orange drinks / and I always like the idea of the gay bar / more than the gay bar itself because here we are / not burning through anything / but a pack of cigarettes and all our prepared small talk / for the first time the fire is us-adjacent / a set piece or something flickered to life / on the back balcony for a smoke and / we don’t know what to do


Olivia Lehman is a lesbian poet based out of Virginia & a graduate of the University of Mary Washington. Her work can be found in The Oakland Arts Reviewand The Underground. She is currently working on a collection of poetry that focuses on apocalypse, gay parties, and much, much more. You can catch her on twitter @dembookstho or her website olivialehman1.wixsite.com/website.

Oormila Vijayakrishnan Prahlad

LPs and armchair theories 


I remember the time 
we found that stash
of eleven vinyl records
in the attic of that derelict 
we used to rent downtown
strewn among rat droppings
but safe and unscratched 
in their dog-eared jackets -
Shostakovich, Vivaldi, Gershwin
each inscribed in a calligraphed hand :
I love you Peter, 
yours ever, Laura.
all dated the 14th of June
from 1988 to 1999.
 
we brought the LPs down
played them one by one 
night after night at dinner
speculating all the while 
on the lives of the previous renters -
the mysterious Laura and Peter
concocting our own tales -
14th June was Peter’s birthday
or that’s when he first met Laura
or that’s when they got married
how they likely never made it 
past the turn of the millennium
her gift of one LP a year
coming to an abrupt stop
when Laura ceased to love Peter 
somewhere at the eleven year mark.
 
we took random guesses 
at the vows they broke
pictured their union tail spinning 
neither claiming the record collection
and as a last act of severance 
forsaking their musical baggage
discarded in the attic
the vestige of a love gone rancid.
 
back then you and I
were one year old newbies 
and marriage and armchair theories 
came so flippant and easy.


Oormila Vijayakrishnan Prahlad is a Sydney artist, poet, and improv pianist. She holds a Masters Degree in English and is a former teacher. Her artworks and accompanying poetry have been exhibited in Kuwait, India, Singapore, and Australia. She is a member of Sydney’s North Shore Poetry Project and Authora Australis, and has published her poetry in various print and online art and literary journals in Australia, Canada, the US and UK. She regularly performs her poetry and exhibits her paintings in Sydney.

Instagram : https://www.instagram.com/oormila_paintings/

Abby Bland

On Healing


Magnolia trees have been around since dinosaurs roamed the earth.
The dinosaurs are decomposed and gone
but the magnolia tree still blooms every spring
outside my parents’ house
beside the driveway
where, without asking,
the first boy took something that wasn’t his
and then decided he didn’t want it after.
 
Sometimes the world implodes,
feels like a comet struck it,
or at least it feels like it when you’re fifteen
and sometimes you wish everything 
had already been fossilized in volcanic ash.
 
Sometimes midwest winter can feel so long and lonely
because we spend so long uncertain if it has actually ended.
 
The magnolia tree always seems to be jumping the gun,
the way I might want to,
its buds pushing into chilly March morning.
I’ve never known a winter it didn’t seem to start too early
leaving some of the buds brown and frozen on the ground,
 
but the tree begins to bloom anyway,
looks imperfect, but is right on time,
even if midwest winter is not ready for it
even if the seasons themselves have a hard time letting go.
 
I wonder if trees can feel their history every spring
the way we do when love tries to touch the heart again
after a harsh, perhaps unexpected, hibernation.
 
Babe, when you reach for me and I hesitate or shrink 
please remember
I’m still learning how not to fear the cold snap,
learning how to let buds bloom and fall if they need to,
 
still learning how to live in season.


Abby Bland writes and lives in Kansas City, Missouri where she is the current program director for the Kansas City Poetry Slam. She has a degree in English from William Jewell College and is currently working on her masters. She is a multi-time finalist on the Kansas City Slam stage and competed on the 2018 Nationals team and the 2019 Rustbelt Regional Team.

John Dorsey

Beth Saves My Life

for Jason Shelley


at least four times in thirty minutes
a cab driver from morocco 
drops me off
at a reading 
 
that feels like an a.a. meeting
 
a former revolutionary 
walks home alone 
in the rain 
 
to feed his cats.


John Dorsey lived for several years in Toledo, Ohio. He is the author of several collections of poetry, including Teaching the Dead to Sing: The Outlaw's Prayer (Rose of Sharon Press, 2006), Sodomy is a City in New Jersey (American Mettle Books, 2010), Tombstone Factory (Epic Rites Press, 2013), Appalachian Frankenstein (GTK Press, 2015), Being the Fire (Tangerine Press, 2016), Shoot the Messenger (Red Flag Press, 2017), and Your Daughter's Country (Blue Horse Press, 2019). His work has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize. He may be reached at archerevans@yahoo.com.

Amanda Pendley

three wishes


we are catatonic
ghost bodies in a misshapen triangle
ley lines in the zoomed in google earth
map of suburban Iowa
hatched and cross-stitched and sewn together 
but tall enough that limbs dangle over the edges like loose thread
 
all good things come in threes
fairytales and selves and pastfuturepresent
we do not always have the willpower to
flex our feet and push ourselves
deadweight
to a half-standing position
we do not have the energy to pull the
door closed behind us as we walk away
 
we are simply too numb to be angered
and too weary for the need to have the last word
we know we are complete
omne trium perfectum
that we will wake up in the same formation on Tuesday
biblical omnipotence
we will save our strength 
we will make a garden in the
inner portion of our enclosement
and soon we will wake up to pansies in our eyes
and no view of each other’s sleeping figures across the grass
 
slow growth will ensue
but there is a rapid cadence of days in which
we walk through the sun holding each other close
unafraid of sweat
it can be collected in the watering cans
it is important to expel the body’s toxins
and there may be soil in my stomach instead of intestines
reversal of processes
and orange juice as rain
 
the seasons are switching hemispheres and
the wind is blowing straight up
taking us with it
angels
tied to the earth by weeds
paperweights for holding our ground


Amanda Pendley is a twenty-year-old writer from Kansas City who is currently studying Creative Writing and Publishing at the University of Iowa. She has previously worked as an editor for award winning teen literary magazine Elementia, and as the Nonfiction Editor of Ink Lit Mag. She is currently the Editor-in -Chief of Ink Lit Mag. Her work has appeared in publications of Ramona MagazineCrêpe and Penn Literary MagazineOutrageous Fortune Magazine, and many others. 

A. A. Parr

Nothing Will Grow Here


It was always overcast on the
long drive out of the city.

Velvet dapples 
in ochre-lit friezes;
remnants of others’ dreams 
sprawling out alongside the road,
glistening and burning, shattered
yellow, white and silver
broken headlights glinting jewels amid
the wreckage of
a five car pile up sixteen miles outside
of town.

The horses do not try yet to run,
professionally broken as they are
penned in to idyllic scenes 
alongside the highway,
that only we can recognize 
from this distance because
at some point 
instead of resisting decay
we decided 
to idealise it.
 
Where decrepit barns
are framed and hung alongside
staged family portraits,
generations of tending livestock
through the harsh winters, fur at its thickest;
the dry summers, crops burnt and
goats restless
while chickens peck peck peck
until nothing grows here.

Nothing will grow here;
I don’t need a sign to say it.

And freedom only needs to span
so far as one can run
if put to the task,
so the fence posts are planted 
until the bush, where
snow fencing runs until coils 
of misremembered metal fencing,
hardware cloth sprawls 
downward, half buried
in the earth it once 
knew how to protect -
and if you wanted to 
meander out that far
then you deserved it
you earned it,
but you had to 
already know 
it was out there,
had to taste it once before
you acquired an appetite
for freedom.
 
And now, who dares chase the wind 
when we’ve built giant turbines
to do that for us?


Our ghosts glint 
in the late summer sun 
streaking out between
cloud striations, trees painted 
in oils to look like wind and
the caution of falling rocks
where roads have blasted through 
more natural formations.
But every stream eventually 
erodes the land before it,
every flood destroys 
the ground below to forge 
its new waterbed,
where someday a child might 
reach into the lake,
collect in two handfuls 
of shells and sands and algae
a shard of glinting yellow sea glass,
glistening and burning, shattered;
and our ghosts 
will regain their beacon, their 
way home 
along this highway, the 
long drive out of the city.


A. A. Parr is a Canadian writer, artist and entrepreneur with a Spec Honours BFA from York University. Her debut Chapbook, “What Lasts Beyond the Burning” is forthcoming from Nightingale & Sparrow Press, 2020; she writes a weekly poetry series for and about strangers, entitled: “I Wrote You This Poem” on Channillo.com; and, she is currently working on her second literary fiction novel. She has recent work out in untethered, Black Bough Poetry, Sonic Boom, Door=Jar, and Turnpike Magazine, as well as forthcoming in Brave Voices Magazine and elsewhere. In her work, she seeks to explore difficult themes in an attempt to shine a necessary light into our darkest crevices. https://aaparr.wixsite.com/ourghosts  

Giovanni Mangiante

Our depressed youth, ghosts


In silent parks
lonelier than a graveyard
in hell
with a two week stubble
and cheap cigarettes,
looking at dimly lit windows
from grey, battered
buildings,
and a drunk
sprawled out on the grass
counting the stars
searching for childhood
memories
in their glow.
 
We have been trying 
to stand up to
the everlasting, rusted colossus
of humanity's indifference
for far too long,
and we've become
a 4/4, single note
party of losers 
with no potential left
to waste.
 
Unseen, waiting tables,
changing tires, cleaning store windows,
unclogging toilets,
or roaming aimlessly at night.
 
We have sunk to the bottom,
and fallen asleep.


Giovanni Mangiante is a bi-lingual writer from Lima, Peru. He has work published in Panoply,The Anti-Languorous ProjectDream NoirPunk Noir MagazineThe Rye Whiskey ReviewEunoia Review, and has upcoming poems in Down in the Dirtand Open Minds Quarterly. In writing, he found a way to cope with Borderline Personality Disorder.

Miranda Sun

April for Old Things 


April showers mean more is coming, clouds
of clover and lavender, grass flat beneath new bodies.
 
That smell of dust, always dust, floating
over musk of dew on unwashed fleece,
 
familiar as an old winter blanket 
curled up at the foot of the bed; faithful dog. 
 
It is spring and I am thinking of wrinkling
leaves and blank pages. Season for strawberries,
 
rhubarb, artichoke of my heart--but not you, not
yet. Come home from pasture, your green meadow
 
limbs, into our kitchen, saffron and sweat
scenting your sticky neck. Come
 
in from the hurts you have not yet found:
ones you’ll collect like butterflies, peel
 
off your raw knees and pin with patterned
Band-Aids. Oh lamb, your shins unnicked
 
with shears, come in. There are greater horrors
than summer storms and I have only my arms.


Miranda Sun is twenty years old. An alumna of the NYS Summer Young Writers Institute and the Kenyon Review Young Writers Workshop, her work has been nationally recognized by the Writers Alliance of Gainesville, as well as nominated twice for a Pushcart Prize. Recent publications include Body Without OrgansLammergeierRed Queen, and more. She is a former editorial assistant for Ninth Letter Online. You can find her procrastinating on Twitter or roaming the streets of Chicago in search of bubble tea.

Meg Kerrigan

marine life


i watch the loggerhead
sea turtles blink slowly
in their tanks recovering
in a sanctuary i wonder
how they could know
they are safe. i learned
they drink saltwater
they drink their home
some of the salt becomes
tears so it doesn’t build
up their eyes are like little
kidneys. we only see them
cry on land while they 
nest and lay eggs but
they do this in the sea too
they do this in their home too
they let go of what they need
to live in order to keep living


Meg Kerrigan is a researcher and writer living in Boston with her dog, Sasha. This would be her first published work. You can find her on Instagram @meg_kerrigan_.

John Yohe

[I bought a fake owl]


I bought a fake owl to scare away the ground squirrels
from nesting in my truck. I've named her Athena.
 
For green tea bring water not quite to boiling—steaming.
steep 3-5 minutes. Never add honey or mile. Barbarian.
 
Some people just like to shoot coyotes. Mostly they're men.
they'll give reasons but cruelty is the reason. Sanctioned.
 
A student asked if he should quit school + hike the Appalachian Trail.
He knew I would say yes. I said yes. He did. My work is done.
 
She helped the police arrest her father by calling 
+ saying she finally wanted to meet + talk.
 
Ok loser, now I'm gonna count down from ten + you come
on one. Ready? Ten. Nine. Eight. Seven. Ha ha stop.


Born in Puerto Rico, John Yohe grew up in Michigan and lives in Oregon. He has worked as a wildland firefighter, deckhand/oiler, bike messenger, wilderness ranger and fire lookout. Fiction Editor for Deep Wild Journalwww.johnyohe.com

Sophie Furlong Tighe

once-promising future


he left
a hooked bird in our garden 
i peeled potatoes, and you dug a grave
a few bleeding cats by the shed
i chopped tomatoes, you wrung the necks
a boston terrier on the windowsill
i can’t remember what we were making, even
 
he purred for us
ate with us
our little fighter 
 
and he must have been—
skinny like that,
deferential like that.
 
 
on the fifth week,
(the morning we named him) 
a neighbour woman 
brought her puppy’s body to our front door and said: 
 
do                     something. 
 
 
we ran our fingers through the matted fur
holding her wounds against our memory.
 
 
we were silent for a long time, before we said 
 
—and forgive us for this—
 
he’s always been so good to us.


Sophie Furlong Tighe is a Dublin based poet. She has work published or forthcoming in DUST MagazineKissing Dynamite, and Boston Accent Litamong others. She tweets @furtiso. 

Julia Gerhardt

Too Little, Too Much 


I have a love that is kind
so sweetly-scented and undefined,
 
dressed in lace,
sewn with silk,
 
I have to put it to rest,
with a warm glass of milk,
 
It nuzzles near my throat,
listens to my breath,
scratches when angry,
at the freckle beneath my breast.
 
If I call it a love,
it wanders
  & wobbles,
into paths      untouched,
I leave it alone, it comes back home, 
saying,

I’d rather have you, but not that much.
 
So, I have a—
it is so kind, sweetly scented,
    undefined.
 
It does not love me
too little
or too much…
 
it sleeps in my bed
wonders if I’m dead
and says
my God,
she is enough.


Julia Gerhardt is a writer from Los Angeles, now living in Baltimore. She is a nominee for the Best Microfiction Anthology 2020 and Best Small Fictions Anthology 2020. She has previously been published in Queen Mob’s TeahouseThe Umbrella FactoryThe AirgonautBrilliant Flash FictionCease, CowsLiterary OrphansRogue AgentFlash Fiction MagazineMonkeybicycle, and others.  Her work is forthcoming in Eastern Iowa Review, and fresh.ink. She is currently working on her first novel. You can find her at https://juliagerhardtwriter.wordpress.com/.

Vismai Rao

Baggage


I haven’t seen it happen but I’m told
 
woolly bears bloom into Isabellas,
acorns explode into oaks, bodies
 
age—
 
In space astronauts weekly vacuum 
their dead skin out: can you believe 
 
each day so much 
dies in us?
 
If I could stay my eyes open 
 
maybe I’ll see how one form slips 
into another. Is it possible, I wonder
 
to travel a single inch 
without foregoing 
 
a single inch? In a dream
I disembowel
 
a suitcase with all my yesterdays 
crammed in it. 
 
I pen down the stories I’ve lived,
make little paperboats out of them
 
& feed them to the Ganges.
When I wake 
 
I shed cocoons
 
like snowflakes— I know each time 
I inhale, I ought to exhale:
 
in order to breathe, even breath
needs to be let go of—


Vismai Rao's poems appear or are forthcoming in the Indianapolis Review, RHINO, Salamander, Glass: A Journal of Poetry, Parentheses Journal & The Shore. Her work has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize and the Orison Anthology. She lives in India.