Daily Suicide
The breathing certainty of ink,
how the pen strokes paper
etched in the rapids of a moment’s vanity―
this is my warm blooded yoga.
With this ink I bend the course of
the everyday
into breath, excrement,
blood cleaving erections.
What once troubled me
is now
yellow juices susurrating in ponds
in my tidal belly.
I try to nibble at the day’s offerings,
my earnestness born out of rhapsodies in caffeine.
Once I jumped into a lake of boys
but didn’t know how to swim―
a joyful suicide, a murder of my inhibitions.
I guess I was just looking
to outlive my history.
Now the lizard in my washroom glides away from me
like a dark feather on wheels. I watch it go by as if
it were time in visual motion.
Under the shower I keep looking
for a little bit of flame
between my outlandish legs.
Forests whistle
birdsong in muscled bark,
shameless foreskin.
Did you know
there is jutting grace
even in the worst of ugliness?
Satya Dash's poems have been published or are forthcoming in Passages North, Cosmonauts Avenue, The Florida Review, Pidgeonholes, Glass Poetry, Prelude amongst others. Apart from having a degree in electronics from BITS Pilani-Goa, he has been a cricket commentator too. His work has been twice nominated for the Orison Anthology. He spent his early years in Odisha, India and now lives in Bangalore. He tweets at : @satya043